Truth.Lies.

Pool Partyy .

2011-06-08T00:41:00.002+08:00

Hello , blog ? :) HEHE . So , SPM is like in freakin' less than , I repeat ' LESS THAN ' 6 months ? :O DIE DIE DIE . Seriouslyyy . Anyways , we had this " pool party " @ Menara Duta 2 to raise funds for GEMZ :} And yes , Im competing again this year ! :) SO COME AND SUPPORT GEMZ , please ? If you do , I swear I'll love you till the day I die . HEHE . Cheer comp is like a month awaaaay o.O YAAY . Im excited ,maybe ? I thought the pool party was shitz . I had fun :} even if I got carried and thrown into the goddamn pool -.-' Thanks to Lynn , Shafique and Bobo :/ Haiyoo . But without you guys , the party would be nothing . A really BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU to those who came :') Seriously , I wish I could list down the list but im veryy the lazyy :) I uploaded a few photos , please do not mind my ugly self .

I love my daddy :)

2011-05-15T22:46:00.002+08:00

And so , daddys back from Europe . All of us got our presents ! :} HEHE . Imma happy child . I got my new handbag from DIOR . Annurlis & Aishah got thier CHANEL purse and mummy got a CHANEL handbag . Yesyes , thankyous Dad :)

Im in the middle of mid-term ! DIE ): Im suffering . HELP .

X

#1 stalker .

2011-05-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

#1 Arief Rahman Erwanto ! :)
Thankyou very much for reading my unupdated blog :) you made me realize how dead my blog is :(

X

It ended .

2011-05-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

Done . Gone .

Shes starting fresh .

2011-02-02T21:57:00.002+08:00

Oh yes she is bebeh ! :) Why let yourself down ? When you can turn things around ? :) Im just saying , lets put the past behind and look forward cause it just might something different . Why dint I listen to my most dearest friends ? :) Lets just driveeee and never reverse ? Unless , its something good to turn back for . Oh god , I feel all tingly . Memories will never be thrown away, but i've gotta change for the better . Definetly must change . I've been thro alot , so lets just put a foot forward and try to put all those things behind or at the side . Hehe ! I feel so hyper all a sudden ?:) weirdo . Imma update sooon , I needa potty . Byeeee .

X

26th January 2011 ?

2011-02-02T21:50:00.001+08:00

It was a new chapter :) I finally opened the door for someone new , lets pray its something I'll never regret cause deep down I know your the one :)

X

dont I ever learn ?

2011-01-02T19:57:00.002+08:00

I saw this coming , but why am I still ? like this . Why ? I knew it was coming .

I saw the fact that you had feelings , for her ? It was obvious , when she was away and you asked if she was back ? Or , is her phone on ? There were so many other signs , you showed .

Im happy , you found someone who makes you smile and laugh .

You were never mine to begin with . I was touched when you were lost when I wasnt here ?

Well , I guess . Even if I died , you'll be alright ? I know you wont read this , but I need to let go something somewhere ? I knew , I needed to distance myself from you . I've told myself that , like 108457327492 times ? :( But , it doesnt work . Does it ? Oh god , why am I stuck to you ?

I guess , this is it . I am definetly staying away from you . Its final . And , im sorry for that .

2011 ?

2011-01-01T21:06:00.002+08:00

So , finally its New Year ? Yaay :} A new start ? New year ? New books ? and my exam year ! :) Omg . Im actually excited ! Seriously . Its my last year , of high school ? And , im done . Oh god , how much time just flies . I'll be 17-teen ? :) Insya'allah , I'll be driving the little ones to school soon . SPM ? Please be nice to me :( Ya Allah , please let this year be a bliss ? Less dramas . I need my straight A's ? PLEASE . And , 2011 ? Be nice to me , please . With 2010 as history and just sweet memories to keep . I shall make my 2011 better .

a month

2010-12-05T13:59:00.001+08:00

and , its a just less than a month left til 2010 becomes history ? ;) and , 2011 becomes the new year everyone looks forward too ? maybe . It'll be my big year , my big exam year . Ohmy , and yet im still here blogging .

X

Hello holidays.

2010-11-14T20:07:00.003+08:00

Oh hello sexy holidays , :) year-end hols is finally here ! well , almost here . Something I would always look forward too , but this time . Sadly , a big NO . I am not looking forward to this years holiday , as the minute the holiday ends its my big year ? :O SPM ? :O Ohmy . Yes , im finally going to form5 then its SPM , and BOOM . Thats the end of my high school life ! As finals just ended , I have yet to receive all my results . So far , yes I may be happy with some of my results ? Some ! And , hope to atleast get 3/4 A's this exam . * crossfingers . the more A's , the better . Hehe . I've been going in and out of the house like noones butts . Literally , im out everyday including weekends . Soon , I will be stuck with tuition and extra curicular :( Boo . Sad aint it ? Sigh , oh well . Atleast , im keeping myself pre-occupied . Im excited yet scared for next year . I should start planning my outtings . I need to make myself prepared D: Sigh . I hate exam years , its one year where you get all stressed and the pimples happily pop-out like nobodys butt -.-' Most annoying part . Practically , im blogging cause Im bored ? and , I've not blogged in so long . Blogging use to be something I do , everyday :O Now , its like once a month ? or worst , once in 2 months . Well , I spent today with friends (: A whole different bunch of friends , at Stadium Kelana Jaya . Watched , a rugby tournament . It was fun tho in the end , even if I was sleepy half way . Lol . Okay , im off . I shall blog later ? maybe :P toodles ! X

Girls Day Out .

2010-11-14T19:46:00.004+08:00

This may be a little late to update , but who cares ? (: So , finally we had a totally girls day out . It was very simple , but yet it felt great ? We should definetly have more girls outtings . Somehow , when there are guys around we just dont have that much fun . So we ended up having lunch at the foodcourt and watched a movie ? We watched ' You Again ' and had Sakae Sushi after that since everyone was craving for sushi :) Hehe . The only two things missing , was Maryam Alisa Bte Zainal Azman & Nur Natasha Nadia Bte Nasir . If they were there , I think it would pretty much be completed . Lesson learnt , do more girls outtings :)

Do you know ?

2010-11-03T22:18:00.001+08:00

Do you ? I dont think so . I dont think you realize how I've been hiding ? Its sad to know you dont know me . Maybe , the starting of our ending has just began .

Finals .

2010-10-17T20:13:00.000+08:00

Bloggie ! :)Hi , ho , hello . I miss you bloggie . Yes I do , even if I dont show it . I have finals in like 2 days ): OH COW . 2 freaking days , I've been studying . Abit . Atleast I've been studying , and I have actually gone bongcus cause of books books books books . OH man , its killing me . With those irritating feelings im thinking about . Sigh . Life just doesnt stop does it ?
Okay , imma hit the hay now :) Goodabye .

X

Such a bliss

2010-09-16T14:00:00.002+08:00

Oh hello blog . I do miss blogging on blogger :) So , I shall start now . Im currently missing my bestfriend , Ili Mastura . Shes in Bangkok , and only arriving later today ): Sigh . Lynn , where are you , when I need you ? ):
I dont think I ever do learn from my mistakes , as thats how mum always states it . Yes , I've realized that . I never do learn , because every time its just common mistakes I tend to make . Unintentionly . Why ? I dont know . Why dont i ever post happy post's ? Because , I can count how many times Im actually happy and smilling without hiding anything .
Anyways , my raya this year is much spent with friends . Family ? mhmm , so so :( Its just not the same . Never will be the same anymore . NEVER . Thank god , he passed me friends I can always count on . Sorry to say , not all . But certain friends , that would and willingly will be there no matter how far we are :') With that , im proud to call them my friends . Im enjoying Raya with friends . Atleast Im smilling . And enjoying something Im suppose to enjoy . I guess , whats not meant to be , is just not meant to be .

X

Taking Chances

2010-09-13T17:19:00.002+08:00

and yes Im back babies :) Mecca was simply great ! :)) I think its definetly one place all muslims should go . Ignore the weather and those rude people , everything else is just simply awesome .
Eid Mubaraak '10' , is pretty much dead . Raya in Mecca , was normal . Nothing in this world , will ever replace the Raya I had 3 years before . Raya nowdays , is just simple acting . Everyone has to just STOP acting to be nice and all . I guess It took Atok's death to reveal everyones secret identity . Its just simply annoying . All the apologies just feels FAKE FAKE FAKE . Just like everyone else in this tiny little world . Well , thats life . Just have to go through it , with or without a smile . I've yet to feel the fun of Raya , its just something I miss . I miss feeling the fun of Raya :) That one feeling , the exitement every year towards Eid . Its just not there anymore . Its dead and gone .

I wanna take this chance to wish everyone a great Eid Mubarak :) I hope that one month of fasting paid off with Rendang , Lemang , Yellow Pulut and everything else . I would like to ask for forgiveness for anything and everything I may have said or done . Intension-ly or unintension-ly . I ask for forgiveness and hope to be forgiven . I mean everyone makes mistakes . Noone in this world is perfect . I hope your enjoying this joyfull month ! :)

X, Nina Andri :)

2010-08-12T22:03:00.001+08:00

I fell , again . He knew . He made me fall , he said its okay . Its okay to fall , you might get a positive sign and look what happened now ? ): Thanks alot . I guess you just like breaking my heart .

2010-08-08T09:50:00.001+08:00

Yes , I admit . Ive fallen for you AGAIN :((

Confessions

2010-08-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

Confessions ?
You confessed ? Why ? What ? I dont get you . You dissapear , then you appear telling me the same thing . Its not that I dont trust you , the last time I wanted to trust you . You played with my feelings and just pulled it all back just in a blink . So , am I suppose to trust you ? But I just dont see it . Im confused . I dont know what and who I have feelings for ? I dont know why . Its just me lately . I think I may know who , but im trying my best to stop it cause I just dont seee it happening . I seriously dont . Nothing . Blank . But I wont stop wishing . Its really sweet of you for confessing , but trusting you again wont be an easy task . And it doesnt help with me falling for a different guy . I dont or dint want to fall , but I did . AGAIN . When someone ask ' who was your first love ? ' Why do I hesitate to answer ? I was never with you , but we had chemistry that I made it into history that will never be erased . You may have erased it , but I know I shall never maybe its because you were just one of a kind . Someone who I thought that sacrificed alot for me . It was never officiail , but we made it like it was official . I have to stop lie-ing to myself . Because the truth is , it is you . Its been you all this while . But , I know I'll just have to keep dreaming . I just realised , Ive been fooling myself all these years . You said it yourself ' you dont trust who every says they forget their ex because that person use to be the one you loved and cared for ' . Those words hit me like gun shot . Its because I feel that when Im with you and I have to just stop it . I dont see it happening anymore . Cause , you definetly dont remember anything . But I sure do . Every single thing . I dont think I'll ever erase it . I still have the shirt , and I never washed it . Its still the way you gave it to me , but I dont think you remember . Its not your fault , but mine . I should just stop dreaming cause reality just kicked in .

x

2010-08-04T19:01:00.000+08:00

Ive been stuck with a feeling , I cant fight . Im trying my best to ignore it , but its not working . Ive got mixed feelings which cant seem to find its way to solving itself .

x

2010-07-18T21:52:00.001+08:00

why is it when shes made ones decision , there just must be something destroying it ? :(

sweeetest16 (;

2010-07-16T23:42:00.002+08:00

Sweet16 ? :)
Out of 16 years , I've been alive . I can say , this is the first SUPRISE party I got and Im thankful for the friends I've made and have now :') I dont think I'll exchange them for anything in this tiny little earth of mine . Their just one of a kind . Its the sacrifices and things they went through to make their plan a succesful one . No doubt , I was trap in their lie and mummy was involved in it too . Everyone was playing a little drama for this past weeek just to make this happen . Gosh , Im just really touched , and thanks everyone who was involved :') I shall upload ze' photos sooon .

x

worst birthday

2010-07-13T08:56:00.002+08:00

On the 1st of July , the clock striked 12AM and a whole bunch of wishes came in :') I was so touched , no doubt . Thanks for the wishes lovee . Sadly , I dont think I'll be having any celebration this year . Its sad to say , it was the worst one this year . Why ? How would you feel if your own flesh and blood forgot your birthday ? and like there was no cake . There was a dinner , but for once I wasn't excited for the birthdaay dinner . Througout my 16 years of birthdays , this is the was the worst one yet . After 2 years of Atok's death , its just been sad birthdays . One and only person who would never forget my birthday :( He would always remember and always go to Uncle Billy for Japanese and he will never forget a birthday present . Even if its a small present , its just the excitement of a present . I just dont get it anymore in this family of mine . Its like Im just invisible . Nothing I do is important . As usual , imma just shutup and smile .

Finally 16 ! :)

2010-06-30T23:25:00.004+08:00

Honestly , I totally forgot it was my birthday week . I thank everyone who remembered :') I never knew you guys would ever remember . Thanks a bunch lovies <3>

Amirul Rosly (;

2010-06-30T23:13:00.005+08:00

Its the one day we share together .

We would share it til the very end of this precious life :)

The one and only unidentical twin I have .

The trust and bond between us will never be broken no matter what happens .

with this , I wanna just wish you

Happy Sweet16 Amirul Rosly (:

You've always been there for me , no matter what . And I mean it . You never failed to come for cheercomp even if it meant waking up around 5AM in the morning . I've never found any other friend which would sacrifice so much for me . I dont I would exchange you for anything in this world because having a twin like you would be one of the best things :') We've been through ups and downs through this twin friendship of ours . But we got through it . And we saved our twin relationship :) Im sorry if I ever did hurt by words or actions . I know there were times , you were pissed at me for doing stupid things , but you never failed to stop me . From the bottom of my heart , I never meant to hurt you and Im truly sorry . As much as I love my life and family . Combined together , thats how much I love you :)

lost track of time

2010-06-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

You just kinda not look at the date nowdays due to stress and your just not bothered cause you'll have other things on your plate . Therefore ,you tend to just forget . The next thing you know , its like 2 days til the day you turn a year older :)

Yol Nina

Yol : Nina !
Nina : Yol !
Yol : lusa , hari apa eh ?
Nina : lusa ?
ha ?
thursday ?
hari Khamis lah .
Yol : ari apa eh ?
kau ni lumpsy la .
Nina : OHH OH OMG .
Thursday !?
Someone is turning a year older maan :)
Yol : sape lagi eh ? :P
Nina : Entah lah , sape la lagi kan ? :P

Sorry , I've not been bothered with dates and time . Bleeh . Sorry love . and btw , Im sorrry Amierul Rosly :) No matter whaat , I'll always love you :)

x

Muhammad Sabir Amin .

2010-06-28T00:06:00.003+08:00

Muhammad Sabir Amin (;

the one and only complicated relationship I had with a younger guy . Honestly , I think we had a pretty good relationship kan Sabir ? :) Anyways , your officially 15 . Ohmyglee , your old alreadyy . Nevertheless , the friendship we've had and will still continue will always have interesting things in it . Cause I know its gonna one hell of a rollercoaster with memorable memories :) so , lets just add more to our album ? :) No matter what , im always here for you love . Its because I know you will always be there for me :) I know you'll do well for PMR this year . Dont worry too much :)

I love youu .

Take care <3

2010-06-20T12:51:00.000+08:00

im not big on Fathers Day. But oh well , Happy Fathers Day Daddy .

2010-06-19T19:05:00.002+08:00

dingdongg . Ever heard of a DARE ? Well lets just say , yesterday in OU . My retarded best friend @ Ili Mastura . Did a very daring dare ? :) and she got what she wanted maan . Have you ever just go up to someone and tell him he was cute ? :O Damnn . Oh well , she did :) Even if it took a pretty longgg timee before she actually did it . So with this , shes got BALLS :)
Its been awhile since Ive catched a movie and finally yesterday I did with noone else better but Ili Mastura :) This was all planned last minute * as usual . Cause forward planning never turns out right . So we decided to catch ToysStory3 3D , in The Gardens . The only movie that had better sitting was the show at 9.50pm . So we took thaat , big mistake . We both dint bring anyy sweater :O It was cold I tell youu . Practically cuddled up with her . Haha . No doubt , the seats were comfy . If there was a blanket , I would have fallen asleep dii . I wont say I loved the movie , but it touched my heart . I was always a fan of toys story :) Reached home only about 12ishAM . It was pretty funny , cause we were actually shivering after the movie . No joke :)

x

2010-06-18T10:30:00.002+08:00

They say his tall , cute and charming . His got a voice . A voice which can sing . But , his stuck on his ex . Even if he was not , she'll just have to dream getting him .

Lies .

2010-06-18T10:22:00.002+08:00

There were reasons behind it , ' why dint I beleieve you were serious ' ? Because I thought it was simple bullsh*t . What do you think I am ? Somekind of doll , you search for me when you need me and when you've got a nice doll you just end up keeping me in the box . When your newer doll has left you , you come searching for me again . Hey boy , Ive got feelings too you know . What do you think I am ? After hours of thinking , fine I wanted to give you a chance . But you blew it off by saying ' forget what I said before ' ? and what is that suppose to mean ? Like hello ? Excuse me ? So what I thought earlier was true , your just the same as any other guy . No difference , at all dude .

x

2010-06-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

Everything just has to stop .

The lying . The acting . The inside jokes . The ' hey ! how are you ? ' and behind my back you frea*ing bi*ch about me . It just has to stop .

I have to stop pretending , cause I just cant anymore .

I have to stop acting . Pretending like everythings fine , when its not ?

I cant keep swallowing everything cause its just perfectly killing me insideout .

Family ? Friends ?

Their suppose to be the ones there for you every time you need them . Im not saying I dont have them , I do . But sometimes , theres just too many lies inside it .

All im saying is , im missing my grandfather .

I think Ive just been trying too hard , to find someone to replace him .

Why ? Maybe its because , I just cant open up anymore . I just cant .

Im about to give up . Seriously .

I know I blog about almost the same thing . Im just speechless when the same thing happens again .

WORLDCUP 2010 :)

2010-06-12T23:03:00.003+08:00

Since when am I into football ? Oh god knows , all a sudden . Im all into it ;) Currenly Argentina VS Nigeria .

2010-06-11T10:28:00.002+08:00

im smilling again [: Making new friends , aint that bad :) All im saying is , lets hope to see happy blog entries after this aite ? :)

x

2010-06-07T21:47:00.002+08:00

In actual fact , shes running away from them . She cant stand the pain anymore . Only one person realized , Ive been giving reason . The one who understands me , Atip Amir [: She knows what im going through as she might be going through something similiar to it . It was a decision she made after several nights of constant thinking . Shes not running away , but shes giving him time . He says I need time , but I think he needs time . I try so hard to be like we use to be , but your avoiding me . It hurts to feel that your running away from me . It hurts to go through it alone . I can see you've got a replacement already . Im happy for you , I truly am . But at time you do wonder , was I even something towards your life before this ? Or was I just something you used to forget someone else . Im guessing you got her back ? Congratulations . Noone would ever know what im going through . The pain she feels when she sees it infront of her face . Im happy to see your happy , but deeply it hurts to see you move so fast . Just in a blink .

Pictures Of Pain

2010-06-05T14:35:00.002+08:00

After a few days of not having internet , macam bodoh ): Haha . But I survived baby [;
Exam are over , and holidays are here . No plans . Just cheer , cheer , cheer and more cheer ! (: Less than 40days left to National Cheerleading Competition 2010 . How scary is that ? :( Ignoring everything is just another pain , pictures dont help . Moved on so fast . Still hurts me , but whatthe . You dont care do you ? ):

He ended it .

2010-05-23T08:07:00.001+08:00

I never knew it would end so fast . Just like that . It hurts . Alot . Oh god , give me the strength to continue with a smile , even If I know . A smile , which hurts .

x

She wants to keep it , but she cant .

2010-05-18T07:50:00.002+08:00

Shes feeling it again .

Shes being left all alone .

Yes , shes with him . But ,

He acts as if their not .

She wants to have a place where she can be herself ,

and not anyone else .

He treats her like their friends ?

Does he know it hurts her insideout .

She wants to keep it .

She cant anymore .

Shes scared .

She doesnt wanna loose him .

But what if he wants to loose her ?

What if his annoyed with her ?

She says 'he' can love one for long if he really loves the one .

What if im not the ' one ' ?

As she crys behind her room door . Silently . She doesnt wanna tell anyone anymore . She'll be keeping to herself for awhile .

Its coming back

2010-05-15T20:48:00.003+08:00

Im sick , pressured , stressed .

I hate it when someone makes me think twice about the decision I made . Im not saying I regret my decision , but sometimes . You act as if you dont care about me ? I liked it better when we weren't together , somehow you showed your love towards me more than now . Now , I think I hardly see it anymore ): Its practically gone . It eats me insideout . Im swallowing everything I can . Sooner or later im bowned to let it all out and its not gonna be pretty anymore . Im keeping everything I can . I know im seeking too much attention , because its something I miss having . I dont know whereelse to seek it from . Im trying my best to get it from , but it just doesnt work . Your different from others , I cant be my childishself around you as your gonna think of it as annoying . Then you'll say im being childish . Im being childish because its something I am . I am childish , my upbringing is just that way . I was brought up as an only child even if im not . I just miss having someone understand me . As much as im trying to understand you , I dont see that your understanding me anymore ): The reason I choose you was because I thought I saw you were always trying to understand me . But I dont see it anymore . God knows what happen ):

She tells her tale

2010-05-11T19:23:00.001+08:00

Feelings for a person dont decrease , instead it inceases . Once it increases , its not easy to let them go . They took your heart , you hope for them to take care of it .

Midterm is in 2 weeeks ?:O Kill me already .

After reading

2010-05-07T20:00:00.002+08:00

After reading Atip's blog about the trip to Azzah's . Made me tear . Oh yes , we use to spend alot of time together . Sharifah Azzah , Awatiff Amir and Syafiqah Fauzi . Oh yes (: My pretty ladies . Them who understand and will be there no matter what (; I dont think anyone would be able to replace them . All 4 of us are in different schools now . End of this Awatiff Amir and Syafiqah Fauzi will be ending their secondery school life and left with me );
After the trip with Mohd Hadhri and them pretty ones to Azzah's . Yes , the chemistry is still there . We laugh and we tear together . I dont think the chemistry would ever run away , i hope .
I hope we stay and stick as sisters <3(:

Should start all over .

2010-05-02T22:06:00.002+08:00

Ive been ditching my blog . Yes i truly apologize . Everything has just fallen into place lately , so Im more organize now (: So im back bitches ! (:
Since , Awatiff Amir is back on track , so am I . Haha . Eversince she moved to Puchong . Sigh . So many things has changed but never the less . Alhamdulillah , The Maple is still on track . Imma blog , about what Ive been through with The Maple .

The Maple is a community , where everyone from everywhere are friends and somehow , they just accept you for who you are . Your pretty , ugly , fat , thin , tall , short . They accept you with open arms and the best part . They accept your attitude . Your bad or good . I can say , this one of a kind community . But sadly , people think wrong about this community . People say because of this community , they start not going to school and start bad habits . They start lepaking and all that . Practically , please be open minded . The people in this community has never thought such things . Its the individual to be blamed . Everyone is big enough to think for themselves . Its sad to see all these little things happening . The main aim , was just to keep us together . Not tear us apart ): I hope there would be no more conflicts after this as I love every single one of you in this particular community .

x
Nina (:

She tells her tale after so long

2010-04-27T18:20:00.002+08:00

This little girl inside this girl hasnt told her tale in awhile . Her mind isnt focus anymore , with stuff happening around her . With Gods permission , shes having a great time . But she knows deep inside , shes still unhappy with herself . Shes still dissapointed with her decisions . She doesnt want to let it out , as it might hurt some people . She doesnt know how to say it . Shes keeping so much inside . Whenever she looks at pictures , her heart cries inside . In class , she keeps silent as she thinks . She doesnt know who to trust anymore . After what she saw right infront of her eyes , she cries with smiles . She likes keeping to herself . Why ? Its just her . Accept it .

Kem Wirajaya :)

2010-04-18T19:51:00.002+08:00

'It starts with a sad beggining but ends with a happy ending :)'

Who knew I would survive in a camp like the camp went through . Obviously , last week I was excited as I LOVED school trips . Sadly , this was a whole different trip . This was actually a CAMPING trip . God knows , how I felt on the first day . Whoever was there , felt the pain I felt :)

But never the doubt , it was an awesome camp in the end :) With memories that would never fade away :)

Pekhemahan Perlantikan Perwakilan Pelajar

2010-04-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

Lol . Cool tittle ? :) Hehe . Im somehow excited + not excited for this camp . I mean its been ages since Ive been on a school trip . The last time , was like what standard6 ? :O That was 4 years back . Omg . Damn ! Thats longg . Shitt . This year it will be held at Kem Wirajaya , Ulu Langat . Sounds scary though );Heard we get to pick our own roommates :) So im guessing Im sticking to Syaza . As planned kan Yaya ? :D Dont leave me bitch ); Nanti menjerit aku sorang2 . Lol . Were only gonna get the taklimat thing tomorrow , so therefor i aint going to school on Friday as im going to go buy the stuff with mummy <3>
:) Hee . Im off to bed now . Nights :)

X

Sweet-16

2010-04-11T00:31:00.001+08:00

Muhammad Syakri B Amin (;

Happy Birthday niggga . Omg , your 16 :O

Eeee , your old ! HAHAHA .

Love ya bro . Take care of Lisa kay ? :)

2010-04-06T19:04:00.001+08:00

Her heart is regretting already .

thats all she can say today .

Its around

2010-04-05T10:34:00.002+08:00

As she gets up , the first thing she would look at would be her handphone . It was already 7.05AM . She heard mummy screaming from the room next to hers . Everyone dint go school as they woke up late . Mummy came into her room , feeling her forehead . Took her temperature it was 39 ): She was shivering already all over again . She has this weakness , where if shes sick its very hard for her to get up . She continued sleeping . At 9.35am she was all better . She decided to text him saying she dint go to school . His only reply was ' oh okay :) ' With weakness in her , she felt as if he dint care much . His next reply was another 2/3 words . In the end , after 3 messages from her , she decided to just stop texting . Shes hurt . She feels as if she made the wrong decision . Did she ? Shes too sick to think about it . Certain times he does text her , but at other times they way he replies is like ' oh im not interested to even text you ' . Its just so different . Her humble heart just cant take all these extra fast changes around her . Shes too weak too face it .

It poked in way too deep

2010-04-04T15:22:00.002+08:00

She waits for your text . She waits and waits . You never did text . She tries to fill up her mind with happy thoughts . It dint work . Today , you say your embarassed to say . Your words hurt her deep . Next thing she knew , shes crying already . Shes thinking again ? Was it the right decision ? Did she make the wrong turn again ? ): She just wants someone whos proud of her and not embarassed to be with her .

x

Read It . Understand It .

2010-04-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

Its about a girl heart . Ive known her all my life . Shes been through alot . It may seem a little to some , but to her its alot . Shes gone through hard times , but not as hard as what shes going through now . She refuses to show what she feels , as it might hurt the people around her . Which would be the last thing she would want to do to them , as she loves them . At times , she just has to it go . Her heart , pain and anger has been kept too long . Theres too many secrets in between her life that she has just found out about . Shes trying her best to get use to the situation now . Its been years she'd come home to an empty house . She feels like shes alone now . She just cant get use to it just yet . She cant seem to have confidence , as insults just come flashing straight to her face which pokes her heart . Adding more pain , is she just falls to easily . Shes trying to learn not too . But she just needs someone there for her . She has lost so many on her way up . She doesnt want to loose anymore on the way down . Sadly , she thinks she is . Shes trying to keep people around her happy , but deep down actually shes hurt . She may not hurt them , but shes hurting herself . Why ? Because she just doesnt want to looose any of them anymore . She keeps . ALOT . She keeps and just stays in her room without a single word . She doesnt want to tell anyone , so she makes herself happy around people . Making them no notice , shes actually suffering . She just doesnt want them to fell bad because of her .

x

One Night

2010-04-03T00:21:00.002+08:00

It started with just news that Atip was going to visit ' d maple ' . I had the tendency to go already . As its been awhile since Ive been hanging out with them . As it is now April 2010 , my timetable is as full as you can fill it up . Sadly , Ive got no time on my hands to go anywhere . Even on Saturdays . I told her i couldn't make it as i end tuition at 5.30pm . When the school bell rang , I still wanted to go . AS this might be the one chance I get to see her anytime soon . Mother dint tell me her plans , pratically I was too tired to go anywhere anyway . On my way to Ampang , mother told me wheere she was going after she'd picked me up . From then , i made a decision to go and see them loved ones :') Out of all nights , even if this night might be the night i suffered abit . I had pretty friends , there supporting me . Telling them my feelings at that very moment helped me alot . It gave me confident to just ignore certain things and enjoy while you can . I knew my decision may hurt certain people , that was the only reason i wanted to keep my little secret to myself . I dint want anyone to get hurt . But , how long am i or will i keep it ? Im sorry but i had to let it go . Thank god , i had understanding friends . Now , its just you I dont understand .

AWATIFF AMIR (:

2010-04-03T00:16:00.002+08:00

Awatiff Amir :) The news of you moving to Puchong was a heartbreak for EVERYONE . Everyone knew , everything was going to change because of that . You would always be the one bringing everyone together and theres no fun in it without you there anymore . As far as i have moved , i dint move as far as you . How much pain im going through without you . Damn . I think its alot . I can only release tension with you through a phonecall as your too far away for me to go and visit . But hopefully I will soon :') No matter how far you go . You'll always be the one i cry too in the end :)

' D Maple '

2010-04-03T00:11:00.003+08:00

' D MAPLE '

Its a group , where no matter how far any of us go . In the end , we would still end up meeting up again for this group :') Something just too keep us together . I love you people (:

2010-03-29T19:48:00.001+08:00

SCREW EVERYONE for putting words into my mouth .

Now I know what AWESOME friends you people are :)

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR RUINING MY LIFE you bitches .

its back to one

2010-03-27T00:24:00.002+08:00

one and only whos been waiting

I think I've made up my mind (: i THINK . okay ? :)

Its back to the weekends . Friday night stay up and chat with people til Saturday morning . Go out with friends , Saturday afternoon . Sunday just chill at home . Well thats the usual routine dont cha' think ? Any normal usual teenagers usual weekend routine . I dont think I'll be going through that routine anymore . Its a whole new routine now :) DEFINETLY a NEW one ! Form4 aint getting any simpler . Harder maybe ? :) Im still thinking whether i should or not take 'English Literature' . Yes I know people say its an aawesome subject to take , but I think ive got enough on my plate . Chemistry & Physics is a hell of a headache already . Oh dont mention Additional Mathematics & Accounts ? :S Besides stress on studies . My side order stress is pilling upp . I know I should settle it , but its not as easy as that . Mummy just thinks Ive got too much time on my plate , so i tend to waste my time thinking about stuff which shouldn't be thought or even be in my mind at this point in time . But sadly , its already in my mind . STUCK , GLUED and I dont think its gonna wash off any sooner . How sad can that be ? ): Been thinking alot , and AGAIN i question myself . WHY MUST I PUT MYSELF IN A SITUATION WHERE I DONT EVEN WANNA BE IN ? WHY ? I tend to do it again and again . Nina , when are you gonna learn your lesson ? This year I hope :) Lol . I miss dancing ): I seriously do . I should start to write down when im free :) Timetable is so tightt :/

im off to bed . Nights love ;)

2010-03-25T00:30:00.003+08:00

I dont get whats going on . I dont get why suddenly your being all moody with me ? I dont get what your saying anymore . EVERYTHING is just complicated .

So , its been awhile since I've updated my blog properly (:

Nothing new , seriously . OHHH cheer is back on track & im aching again (:

Welcome back 'cheer' pain (:

Decision

2010-03-18T09:34:00.002+08:00

"never leave a friend for a boyfriend"

When you need to make decisions as quick as you can , you dont about the little things that might happen and affect you after that . The little things that can bring it to loosing a friend that love . "Boyfriends come and go , but 'true' friends they stick with you no matter how poor you get" Life has its ups and downs . Practically , downs like me very much as it has been bothering me for the pass 16 years ive been alive . As we go through life , decisions are life . The decision you make will be the burden or happiness you carry . But making a 'decision' is awfully a hard task in life .

Its Complicated

2010-03-14T17:23:00.002+08:00

Lets just say im going through this little delema which involves two birds . Im not gonna say who . But maybe the way im seeing things and the way your seeing things are different . Im not saying what your saying is wrong but , i dont like or DISLIKE people telling me off . The way i see it is ;

Im not trying to play with anyones feelings . I swear . I know how it feels . BUT what im doing now is , im trying to pick the right one . Therefore to do so is , through friendship first . I may have given the same reason to both is because its what my answer is . That is my answer . Im not playing with anyones feelings . But if this two has another person , please be my guest and move on . Im not telling anyone to wait for me .

Its starting all over again

2010-03-10T12:03:00.003+08:00

This years drama has already started . Im trying my best to get myself out of it . Its just not working . I officialy have my laptop back , one good thing for me this year ;D But others ? Sigh ):

From Family to Friends to School to Feelings towards someone . Its starting all over again . How I hate this ):

formspring.me

2010-02-26T20:31:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/sugarandlove

2010-02-25T12:08:00.002+08:00

I thought this year I wont get myself into all this shit . I was wrong , instead im going through it again . My heart was happy to hear you say that your heart had opened a tiny section for me though I knew , it would never be a full section . I like hearing your problems , I dont mind seriously even if it gets to you sometimes . For me as long as your happy and not feeling my pain , its okay because of someone you love , you wont mind suffering ! Now that you know what im going through , I dont want you to back off . I hope we'll still be like we are now ); Thats one reason why i dint tell you or confess . Its because I dint wanna take the risk of loosing you . I know where I stand . I know how much you love her . Shes really lucky , its just that she doesnt realize it . She will , one day . Im sure :) You'll just have to be patient . Not many guys would wait for a girl as long as you did . Not many guys would actually be patient . I love the way you look at me , but your not mine to look at . I know you dont read my blog , but its the only way i express my feelings towards you .

Jumbled Feelings

2010-02-24T22:41:00.001+08:00

Im all mixed up now ):

Menara Duta Reunion

2010-02-18T16:26:00.003+08:00

Them who has been there and is still there for me no matter what :')

Including Sharifah Azzah

After everyone going their seperate ways , we had a reunion :) Its been awhile since we 'lepaked' like we use too . Had a small potluck . It was the best one yet ;D Everyone was there except Sharifah Azzah , it would obviously be better with her around ): WE MISS YOU AZZAH ! During this small tiny gathering , there was some unexpected people who came . Im not saying anything . That was the only one part that kinda sopiled the thing . But after that , we were back to normal! :) Laughing and Gigling all the way . Lookiing forward to our next one peeps ;D

formspring.me

2010-02-15T17:09:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/sugarandlove

2010-02-14T10:35:00.002+08:00

I know you read my blog . This is just to tell you , it'll be hell for me cause your leaving me for boarding school ): You still owe me my teddy bear . I'll miss you thats for sure .

My Little Secret

2010-02-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

2010-02-02T21:00:00.002+08:00

Raja , Ariff , Nina , Amir , Syakur :) Syakur's Farewell )':

Abdul Syakur Abdul Manan . Its sad to say his left 4 Jupiter and is off to Teknik Gombak . He was an awesome person . Especially if you needed to laugh again . Or you were just feeling down , i swear his someone who you can go too . He'll make you laugh without fail . Today would be the first day in class without him , it feels so dead . As he was the clown of the class . He was my Additional Mathematics partner , and now ? Syakurr , kau dah tak de ? Aku nak suruh sape lagi explain wei )': The class feels so empty . During recess , if i go down the stairs , i dont have anyone to bully / disturb anymoree . Everyone felt like something was missing in class today , everyone was just not soo 'cheer-y' anymore . Even teachers missed him , as like I said he was the clown of the class )': Lets just hope , even baru 1 month satu kelas , you wont forget 4 Jupiter ! :) I think everyone misses you . I pray for the best in your new school as its a new environment . Text me and update me on your latest kay ? :)

Nina

2010-02-01T12:34:00.002+08:00

Febuary dont hurt me like January did .

Sometimes , i feel down . But sometimes , im alright . Ive got mixed up feelings which i cant seem to understand . Im trying really hard to understand them but it just doesnt work . All my years , it has always been me trying to understand ? What about the other half . How come he doesnt try . Some say its because , i just dont learn . Where some say its the way you grow up . When will i learn ? As much as i feel , im trying ? But i just dont get which part im doing wrong . The more i tend to try forgetting you , you come back . When i dont try , you ignore me . What is this innocent little girl gonna do after what she has been through ?

2010-01-26T15:21:00.001+08:00

You wont run if it doesnt hurt .

Sometimes , you want love but is just too scared the same thing happens again . You just fall too easily .

Rumours

2010-01-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

and soo , is that word familiar to you ? Its a popular word in a teennage life . Of course it is , because so UNMATURE people in this tiny little pretty world just cant stop talking about others can they ? Im gueesing not . I dont freaking care if your freaking older than me , but you just act like a 7 year old . Like seriously ? How childish can you be ? Oops sorry , how KAMPUNG can you be ? Dude , act your age la wei . Dont talk unless you know the fact is CORRECT ! Im not scared of you . IF you've got a problem with me , come face me la ! Dont go shouting ! And acting like 'oh was I talking to you' -.- FACE TO FACE and ASSSK ! Before you make any remark about ME , come ask me first . Your talking about ME not YOU . Sesuke hati kau je nak buat cerita pasal hidup orang kan ?

Weekends

2010-01-17T18:46:00.003+08:00

Hello blog . Im sorry Ive been ignoring you . Form4 aint where I have all the time in the world to blog ): Sigh . Im adjusting myself with my form4 timetable . With tuition everyday ! Like everySINGLEday . Its for the benefit of me . Its so annoying when people think you cant do it , where you think you can . I think I can . It doesnt help with no moral support around you . Sometimes you just feel like screaming and saying that HELLO , Can I just carry on and try first before anyone makes anything decision . I mean its my future isnt it ? ): One of the reasons I wanted to get out of this house and just let myself study on my own . I think I had an awesome weekend . Started off with 'studying' in Menara Duta with Johanna Jane , Awatiff Amir , Syafiqah Fauzi , Atika and Afiq ! :) Well studied half way and took pictures ! LOADS of pictures . Jojo ended up sleepingover :) Hehe . We only slept at 3am . I talked to Jojo's friend , Zulhusmi for about half an hour . He was nice enough to wake up and talk to us . Jojo and I took loads of videos but only ended up liking 2 -.- HHAAHAH . If I have time I'll upload , its hell funny :) Will be spending most of the weekends with her anyway :D HAHAH . So more VIDEOS ! :D :D :D

Whoa Willow

2010-01-10T11:50:00.002+08:00

Johanna Jane & Amalina Sofia

Whoa Willow The Musical was a great show ! :) Ghazi , I think it was all good minus the mic problem . BUT it was a great show :) Pictures are posted up on facebook & myspace :)

NERD .

2010-01-07T19:45:00.002+08:00

Imma turn into a nerd this year . Its just books people ! BOOKS & BOOKS & MORE BOOKS ! I know Sub-Science aint an easy stream , but for once im gonna prove to some that Insya'allah I can with a little help and lots of revision . Ive got 2 science subjects and 4 maths ): So its Chemistry & Physics for science and Modern Maths , Add Maths , Accounts and Physics for maths . Wish me luck . Oh yes i may need all the luck there is . Lets just hope I can cope with everything ); Sigh . Oh god , give me the confidence to carry on :)

Its back to books

2010-01-04T15:44:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah , I got into Sub-Science . My first option :) Oh god , thank you ! :) Im in 4 Jupiter . Ive got Syaza and Farhan with me . Farhan might move , im begging him not too ): Thanks to some people , im Ketua Kelas -.- Sigh . First day of school was okay . Tumbs up for this year ! :)

Its been broken too many times

2010-01-03T19:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes , once its been broken just too many times you tend to give up on everything . I mean everything . Its like your heart just cant accept anything anymore . I promised myself , Imma make this year my year ! For once , I wanna be proud of myself . Just for ONCE . I dont wanna be in my little shell hiding anymore . Being stepped by them ugly people . Getting hurt by them heartless people . If only I had the confidence to move on and show them .

Hello 2010 Goodbye 2009 !

2010-01-01T11:04:00.000+08:00

say HELLO TO 2010 ! and GOOBYEE 2009

I would like to wish everyone Happy New Year . May God Bless you in 2010 ! :)

2009 , was not a very joyful year . Through good & bad times . Heartbreaks to Insults . All together it may be the worst year so far . But thank god , I had friends & family along the way who helped . They never gave up on me . Especially the ones whos been there without fail . With no doubt , i say THANK YOU for giving me the confidence to go on and not stop :)

Golden Lounge !

2009-12-29T10:03:00.002+08:00

Will be leaving for Penang soon . Currently at the Golden Lounge ! Waiting , I'll be gone til Friday ! Tata ;D

x

Alvin & The Chipmunks2 !

2009-12-28T17:20:00.002+08:00

Aloha , its been awhile hasn't it ? Whats new ? Nothing except my results :) To tell you the truth , i thought I wouldn't get any A's but Alhamdulillah i got 2A's :) Mummy was proud as i flunk certain subjects during my trials . Thank god , i passed all :) God still loves me ! :) Eversince results , Ive not been anywhere . Ive been home ! :) For the very first time since after PMR as mummy says . Theres no where else to go . Haha . Ive gone to all the malls already . Congratulations to anyone who got 8A's :) To all the form2's , good luck :) A whole new chapter is begining as 2010 is arriving ! Im excited but lazy to go to school ): Waking up early is the part I hate most ): Sigh . I finally watched Alvin & The Chipmunks2 ! OHMG . Freaking adorable . As usual , Theodore is my favourite ! His still cutest . LOL . Mummy just decided she wanted to watch a movie last week . We had like 5 little kidos with us -.-' GOD . But they were alright ! Sorry Arrfin , I had an emegency ): Next time , i promise :)

Johanna Jane's Sweet15

2009-12-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

Johanna Jane ! :) I met her in facebook , she was Faiz's best friend . We got to know each other better , and found out we had alot in common . I mean ALOT . Strange ? Yes . What I can say now is shes been helping me . She knows like 3/4 of my secrets . :) On her birthday , i was the FIRST to wish you kan Joo ? ;D Haha . We were talking while waiting for the clock to strike 12am ! I officially call her my best friend :) HAHA . Okay Joo . I love you bebeh ! :D

Sweet16 :)

2009-12-21T21:07:00.003+08:00

Syafiqah Fauzi

Happy sweet16 Syaf :) May all your dreams come true ! Yesterday night , Syaf had her sweet16 . I can say it was simply formal and awesome :) She had a beautiful dress on , I became the bridesmaid last minute . I dint mind as I loved helping :) I was Amylia's by 10am . Atip , Ticks and me headed to Teha's around 5pm to get ready . We officially started at 9.30pm . We were abit late but I think it turned out just fine . Im not in the mood to blog , but I hope you enjoyed yourself Syaf :)

The smile can be fake

2009-12-18T13:58:00.002+08:00

You gave me unwritten signs . I was eager to beleive . I knew it was just too good to be true . True enough , it wasn't signs ):

13hours

2009-12-13T09:35:00.003+08:00

GEMZ ! :)

I had the best night of nights at Sunway Pyramid :) We arrived at about 9am and only went back at 10.15pm . A good 13 hours ! We only had 3 days notice , all in all . It was a good performance ! :) REVUFORTE , 2nd is good enough ! You guys rocked the crowd . All of us had an awesome time performing with you guys . Every band represented a charity . We represented SPCA :) Thats the reason we all turned into animals for the performance . Dont you just love our ears ? :) LOL . In the end , thanks Aza for giving me this oppurtunity to perform ! :)

GirlsDayOut

2009-12-08T21:21:00.003+08:00

GirlsDayOut :)
Mummy decided to have a girls day out as we were bored after swimming in the morning . We wanted to catch a movie , but theres nothing interesting . Instead , we headed to Bukit Kiara :) Bowling ! :) Haha . It was a good game , lots of laughter and smiles . Something I needed . Cheer is back on track ! :) Haha , im excited . Lol . Im off . G'night :)

Your the one who said I'd be lost without youu

Its been awhile since I felt like this . Why should I be sad ? Ive made my own conclusions , its because my feelings towards you is still there . Stuck like I tattoo-ed it . Crying the whole night dint make me feel any better , but finding 'it' in the boxes behind my door made somethings fly away . I was speechless the whole day .

Finally 15 !

2009-12-05T19:45:00.003+08:00

A true friend is cheaper than therapy :)

You stood up when everyone stood down .

You were not embarassed to be my friend .

You gave me motivation when I lost confidence .

Syaza Hanis , your finally 15 :) ! I wish you a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! For the past month , you know what im going through . Your one of them who understands :) Im sure there are reasons god made us good friends . Im thankful , we've had so many good memories ;) From one to another mall , making friends in the monorail and walking from day to night ! Haha . Sleepovers . Crazy talks til about 3am . Stupid prank calls . Yes , goodgood memories :) I love you the way you are babe ! :) No need high heels to make you any better , your fine they way you are ! :D Take care of yourself .

Hugs,

Nina :)

Its stuck in my head

2009-12-05T14:16:00.001+08:00

Its Saturday ? :) Everyone else is out , while im stuck at home ! Im suppose to go out , but i choose not to . Lazy . Im broke , and im suppose to go shopping on Monday . Sigh . Im off to follow mummy send the little ones ;) Tata .

I like you the way you are

2009-12-03T16:32:00.001+08:00

Im getting my mojo back :)

Hello blog , I know Ive been ignoring you lately . Im sorry . I'll be blogging as much as I use too now :) Heh . I painted my nails 'cherryred' & 'turqouise' ! Goodbye Taylor Lautner , Hello Kiowa Gordon !

Certain people in this very tiny small world are very childish . Is it a problem If we went out with him ? -.- Gosh .

Goodbye Wii

2009-12-01T17:05:00.002+08:00

30th November 2009

Zawiruddin .

Its sad to say his leaving Hartamas :( After a few outtings being postponed , finally we went out yesterday !:) He planned it and it turned out great . We dint do much , watched NEW MOON and went to play snooker -.- Haha , thats it . It was funny actually , we were all so bored after the movie . Lynn , Syaza and Arif tagged along . According to Wii , its his last outting -.- *Prays* You can make it this coming Wednesdaay .

Second thoughts

2009-11-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

Simple pretty words .

Im scared the past might repeat .

Im scared you wont be able to accept .

Im scared loving you was wrong .

Im scared of so many things that might happen .

Laughing Gases

2009-11-26T17:04:00.004+08:00

-Barbican- (:

Hello blog .

I know my blog is very 'blunt' now . Im speechless . Lynn , Syaza & I planned to watch Time Travelers Wife , but as usual it dint happen . Noone wanted to confirm so I dint bother to book anything . All in all , it turned out fun excluding Hazwani's attitude . It started off just the three of us , as usual . Then Azeem called , he came with his bunch of friends . Which were speechless . Ohmg , i met Izzanul Asyiq ! :) I miss youuu . You menghilangg all a sudden , left without a word . Meeting you was like 'shock mode' . After lunch , we headed off to CottonOn & Forever21 . Lynn goes crazy with colours . Lynn , the one who made me change the top I was wearing into a dress . It was funny , it took me a long long long time to think about it though . Forever21 in Pavillion , oh iLove the fitting room . Its pretty ! ;D

Syaf arrived with her pretty black dress . I had a partner :D Heh . We were at some restaurant behind RoofTop with Azeem & Friends . First Syaza & Syaf , went to check if there was any space but there were none . Lynn wanted her 'barbican' , so Lynn & I decided to go to RoofTop again to check and alhmdllh there was ;D Haha , spent the rest of the day there . At last after so longg , Dzulfadli Zakaria came ! (: Haha , yes I miss him . Its been 3 years since he became my petbrotherr . Afteer so longg , I finally got a picture withh him . Hehe . Like I said , I had an awesome time with them <3> I'll post up some pictures :D

Hazwani; You dont want to forgive me , FINE . I aint asking for forgiveness anymore . Thinking about it , made me cry . You've been the best 'closefriend' so far . You have always been there . You knew when I was down or not . It was my mistake to just leave you like that , but it wasnt my fault . I cant tell my mum to come back -.- One thing about you is , you just dont get it sometimes .

How I wish .

2009-11-24T11:33:00.000+08:00

2009-11-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

Feelings just dont change that fast

2009-11-20T16:13:00.003+08:00

if only you felt the same thing .

HelloHello . Currently on webbie with Arrifin , Hazrul and Ezmir ! Its been ages since I talked to Ezmir . I might watch The Time Travelers Wife tomorrow with Lynn & Syaza at OU . Sunday , Zawi said its his last outting :( I'll try not to miss it wii . Its sad . Everyones leaving , Azzah just moved from MD . She cried . No worries babe ! When im at Pavillion , I'll call youu baby . Zawi is moving school , so is Eleena :( *sigh* Daddy been saying these boarding school overseas . Its sounds really formal and ladida . Weird names though . Mummy's puttng me in some theater workshops in KLPAC . Sounds interesting . And theres a new acting school opening in January 2010 . Another interesting thingg . Holidays aren't that interesting now . Its kinda boring . So another activity mum might put me in is ICE SKATING (: Im excited . Blogging aint my thing anymore man , i dont the mood for it nomore :( Its so weirdd . Gahh , im off . tata (:

My decision

2009-11-18T15:35:00.001+08:00

I trusted your words . Asking you again if your serious or not , you said 50-50 . Ive made up my mind , not trusting anyone no more . Thanks : '(

2009-11-17T12:18:00.002+08:00

The Confession Of A Broken Heart

2009-11-16T22:59:00.004+08:00

Im seriously jealous of people who have dimples ! (: At last a picture of Faiz Yusof alone , smilling (: and I realised he has dimples . Unfair .

To unknown person ; Thanks for song !

Your welcome with open arms

2009-11-16T18:08:00.002+08:00

There he is (: His so tiny , his little feet and toes . His hand is so tiny . Instead of going to KLCC , we went to see Aunty Noura at Damansara Specialist (: I put baby Martin to sleep . He was fast asleep . So cute ! :D After visiting Aunty Noura , I headed off to Menara Duta2 unexpected . Natasha had a small gathering . In advance , Happy Birthday Tasha (: Atip , Yol , Arrifin were there too . I'll be there again this coming thursday for Arrifin's farewell . Im not in the to blog now days :( Im off . Byebye (:

Dont say it if you dont mean it

2009-11-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

Thanks Daddy (:

2009-11-11T22:12:00.004+08:00

I dint get my handphone yet but Daddy suddenly came home with a bag from Sony Style (: A bag full of stuff . Everyone was so curious what it might be . I was wondering if it would be my new handphone *mimpi la kan*

Ahmad got a new PSP (:

Annurlis & I got a pink walkman (;
except mine was with pink speakers ! (:

Aishah got a purple walkman her was with build-in speakers (;

Thank you Daddy (:
Insya'allah , I'll be out of the country by next month / this month (: Wherre ? Im not sure . But I hope were going somewhere , I need to get out from here :(

Never Give Up

2009-11-08T22:25:00.002+08:00

Never giving up .

Im trying , but sooner or later i will .

My feelings towards you dint change , ever since the day you broke it off it still remains . Why ? I dont know . Im having hope . Why am i wasting my love for you ? Now , i have feeling your with one of my close friends . How much it hurts :( ? I think you'll never understand . At that one point you gave me hope . The minute I received a message from you , you wouldn't know how happy I was . We continued for a few days , and then you dissapeared again . Do you think this is a game for you ? Your playing with my feelings :( . I dont think you realise , all i want you to do is open your eyes ! See beyond the line . You gave me so much confidence , you got me into accepting you and this is what i get : '(

Gotcha

2009-11-06T15:47:00.003+08:00

Happy belated Birthday Atip (: AGAIN (:

I hope you enjoyed my birthday present to you (; Sorry kena tepung and telur . The telur part was Ayip's plan . It was my way of saying thankyou for everything ! (: Thanks to all who came and played along the trick . Thanks for acting ! (: Hehe . Sorry Atip , kesian you . Kena teruk kot :P But all in all , it was a good suprise party ! Best one yet ;) Never knew it would be that good . I dint snap any pictures . Ayuew & Tasha did . I'll be stealing soon (: I stole some already . Mummy has been ultra busy with Thriller Night . Pratically shes in school every single day :/ I dont have much to say , but ILOVEYOU Atip (;

Tata (:

Passing a remark

2009-11-01T10:22:00.003+08:00

Sharifah Azzah passed a remark ' Nina you dont blog much nowdays'

Sorry baby girl , im not into blogging anymore . Maybe later i would get my mood back . I dont have much to blog about . Whenever i express myself by blogging , people read it the wrong way . For me , yes blogging is the only way i express myself . But when people start reading , and telling others it becomes something else . I will continue and update my blog just not as often . Once in awhile maybe . Insha'allah once my laptop is out from the hospital , i'll be blogging more than now .

SKBD's Familyy Day (:

Oh yes , so many memories return . When you turn back time :') I had an awesome time with loved ones . Alyssa Aishah , i miss you (: I dint expect she would be there ! Im sorry i couldn't sleepover . I had a Kenduri for my cousin . Im suppose to go watch Jenifer's Body with Lynn , Lyss , Marinna , Raeesah and the guys which im not sure who . Not sure if im going , i might . Ahmad has a birthday party at Royale Bintang so its just around the corner . Damn, these little people's party are extreamly 'high class' . Someone else passed a remark during the carnival , 'Nina how are you & *insername* ? ' I was just like WTF . Where did you hear that from ? She answered *insername*'s blog la ? Okay now look , im sick and tired of all this shit man . What now ? What else ? You wanna write , you write la ! Up to you , i've given up -.- Totally spoilt the whole thing ! Before that the Carnival was okaay , but they lighten it up! (: That night , the kenduri was like anyother kenduri . Nothing special . I have to get ready , so goodbye (: